Today, I just want to throw in the towel. I apologize to anyone reading , this is my little venting session. I think Facebook is too public to be posting your personal stuff. Not that this isn't a private blog or anything, but I don't get as much traffic. So this is my therapy. Have you ever felt like you go and go and go...and its not enough? I'm sure you have. Coworkers and friends keep asking me how school is going. I'm not gonna lie, I pretty much hate it. I wish that I was just done. I enrolled knowing that it wouldn't be easy. I work full time nights, and it is so hard being sleep deprived. And then when I'm not in school, I worry about my job. It has been slow and I've lost hours. I'm trying to have faith and hang on, but sometimes its just hard. I know that when my problems get too much, I need to just hand it over to the Lord. I feel at times that I can't do it. This sounds terrible, I know...but let me say my day got better.
I got my results on my next exam and the results were pretty much the same as the first exam. Needless to say, as a whole the class continues to struggle. I seriously am trying to fight through this. Going back to school for me is like a have to instead of a want to. Its how I feel. But its not over. Round two with my fight with Biology has me down, but i'm not out. I'm not going to give up.
Reminds me of a song from my first go round with College, Tubthumping...i'm aging myself.
"I get knocked down, But I get up again .. You're never going to keep me down......We'll be singing When we're winning. We'll be singing."
And in the next verse I listened carefully....
"He's never broken his promise, he'll be there. He hears each word, heartfelt thought in prayer. He's devoted to you. He'll help you know what is true. Thats what he's promised, that's what he's promised to do."So with that being all said and done. I feel like I had a prayer answered today. And my answer is to not give up. Keep fighting...and that's what I will do.