Thursday, November 17, 2011
I hope that this picture stays. Its a picture of water droplets. I really like this alot. I can't sleep and I think I need to get my feelings out there today. I think sometimes this is what my blog is for. Yesterday was the 16th. It was four years ago today that my life changed. I know The Plan. Death is apart of it, and I totally get that. But sometimes, its just so hard. I wonder if there will ever be a time that I can go through a store during holiday times by myself and not tear up? The night before, I didn't work. I went over to my grandma's to help her out with something. And I went to the grocery store for a few items. While I was shopping in the produce, I see this couple. The guy or lady, not sure which..had on a Neil Diamond t-shirt. My mother and I had attended his concert twice. He definetly was her favorite. So seeing this kinda put a lump in my throat. Not to mention, the holiday things. I got in my car and while I was driving I pretty much cried all the way ..and pulled myself together before I saw my grandma. I think its the times in the car listening to music that gets me emotional. GAH! I helped my grandma, and stayed up..and then realised my mom passed somewhere in the twelve o clock hour. I don't think I will ever forget things like that. Today, I just kept busy. I went to the cemetary, went to lunch and got my pedicure..with my friend. I'm so thankful for good friends. I didn't even shed a tear, until I got into the car again..and again I let it all out. I'm done now. Life will go on once more, but I will always have a day like today's and I know I am not the only one. One of my favorite songs I will leave with you.
Sorry if i'm down...i'm sponsored by Kleenex today. :(